Finding yourself @ 25

I don't know if girls would agree with me. 
But when u are turning 25 you are like a Time Bomb for everyone. 
So here are somethings I have observed and I'm learning. 

1. The most common question asked to you is WHEN ARE YOU GETTING MARRIED?
2. Suddenly your parents are worried that all the good guys wont like you if you turn 26. 
3. You are considered to be settled. By settled they mean you have started working and have completed your masters.
4. The funny part you still have no savings! yes, bank account is empty by the end of the month. 
5. You somewhere are still trying to learn from your past relationships.
6. Friends are growing apart cos either they are getting married or moving to other cities or work has left you with no time to maintain relationships.
7. Your topics have started revolving around when are you getting married or why is everyone getting married.
8. Your calender is booked like never before. After all everyone is getting married!
9. You are trying to find a place in your career or are making 'that' shift.
10. At this time you will chose whether you want your career and not change or start making your first set of compromises.
11. You have to stop posting beers and boys in your pictures.
12. No late nights. Because you won't be judged well.
13. Lifestyle! Oh u still think u can maintain that. Well i'll let you think you can.
14. To get the boy you love make sure you have the same religion, caste, status, bank balances, family backgrounds, stars. Just don't have the same sex and you are sorted!
15. You realize it would be you who would be making the more of the compromises. you can deny, but you know you would.

And the most important, YOU NEED MONEY TO MAKE MONEY.

DILASA

Gum ho gaya hai yeh jahaan

Sab kuch lagata hai paraya sa

Kisi pe ab bharosa nahi

Darr lagta hai khud se bhi

Khushi har pal mein aati hai

Lekin jaane kahan pal mein ghum jati hai

Gham bhi dost jaisa saath nibhata nahi

Har pal aake satata yahi

Iska koi hal ab dikhta nahi

Koi saccha ab lagta nahi

Har koi aake salah de jaata hai

Apne tareeke se behlata hai

Pyar ka matlab mujhe samajh na aa paya

Ya yeh pyar mera naa ho paya

Pyar ka jasba ab baaki nahi

Dimaag ka khel hai sab dil ki zaroorat nahi

Koi aake yeh Dilasa de jaye

Pyar hota hai saccha yeh batla jaye

Koi aake yeh Dilasa de jaye

Dil aaj bhi anmol hai yeh samjhaye

-Riti

BIGGER PICTURE

When everyone asks me what is love? All I can think of are different kind of adjectives describing it. The feeling I used to have, the POWER the word 'love' had on me seems to be lost. There is no one I can blame it on. It's me. It's inside me. It's me who has changed. But just like every one has. We are all so engrossed in reaching the peak that we our somewhere forgetting the 'larger picture'. We forget there is something big, something we cannot fight. It is Destiny. We always believe in it. But how often do we have faith on it.

When i was young and fell in love, I never thought of constraints, problems or issues. I just felt it. I was in love. So i just let myself be. Believed in it with full faith. And that is why that is the only time I felt churns in my stomach, my eyes twinkling, my cheeks blush and my knees crumble. And now, I keep a condition to even meet a person. I question myself, IS it really growing up? AND the answer is 'No'. Its compromise. We have forced ourselves to believe that love in reality is way  different as portrayed. Despite the fact that majority of us want the same thing.  Its just that we have stopped believing in the bigger picture.

If only you let destiny play its role. If only you stop questioning yourself. And if only you believe in the Bigger Picture. Will you realize what you are losing in life.

Questioning my beliefs

There are a zillion times in life, we question everything around us. Whether it be our beliefs or faith, our questions or answers, our parents or siblings, our friends or our partner.  A day when you just want to restart everything in your life, just start afresh. Today is the day, I sit here and question all my beliefs. Belief in me , my relationship, my career, my family , friends, in short My life.

I feel no matter how much i try to give, it just doesn't seem enough for anything. Is it a short coming in me or is it just that i bother to much for things/people who deserve little. How does one decide who/what deserves it all. All your love, your devotion, your attention, your patience, who deserves YOU. Its the biggest question lingering on my mind. 

When you are polite, forgiving, and sweet people tend to just take it for granted. And forget you to have a heart which probably expects the same out of them. I always fail to understand how can one take people or for that matter anything in their life for granted. Do they forget that change is the only permanent thing in life.
I always lose respect for people who do not value the time and patience one gives to them. If you cannot value a living soul, you definitely don't know what life is all about.
We are always running and trying to catch the best of things in life. No matter how many quotes we read to enjoy the process, we eventually just end up running after it. I am never in my present. I am either rectifying my past or growing my future. But when I look around me. I see everyone doing the same. So am i wrong? Should i change myself?
Everyone is trying to reach somewhere because of which they are willing to sacrifice their love, their family, their friends.I wonder where are we trying to reach without all this.
Today i wonder why sometimes you just don't have answers to anything in life
Today i question all of this and many more things. Because may be somewhere my beliefs have failed me. 

I Hate You

I hate the way you talk to me
I hate the way you take care
I hate the way you treat me
I hate the way you stare

I hate the way you flirt
I hate the way you touch
I hate the way you confuse me
I hate the way you see but pretend

I hate the way you can make me smile
I hate the way you can make me cry
I hate the way you can make me wait
I hate the way you make me believe that you are my fate

I hate the way I confide in you
I hate the way I want you
I hate the way I love you
I hate the way I don't hate you

Riti

Come Back to Me

Hey my darling! how are you?
Just may be, I am still with you
Don't say no, please look around
Somewhere in your heart I will be found

I may be upset that I have lost you
But hope and patience I learnt from you
I made you move far away from me
Trust me, that's not how i intended it to be

I know you doubt me and my love
Please give it a chance you may regain your trust
There is love in your heart for me
Just don't let it go, without you finding the real me

Forgiveness is what i ask for
If that's what will get you back in the start
Please don't ever say you'll forget me
My worst nightmare that will be

Please come back as your my fate
Please come back as i will wait
Please come back and wake me from this horror
Please come back and stay with me forever

Riti